25....
1/4th of my life goes poof....
I just turned 25! yay? Not sure how to feel about it. Nothing’s really changed, it sure is a cruel reminder of my time passing away every day without me feeling the adrenaline towards something. I have taken my life too seriously, day in day out doing the same thing. I don’t particularly think that is bad, but last 5 years feels a bit blurred out. If someone would ask what is craziest shit you have done, I have absolutely nothing to say. In a way writing this also feels like I’m over analyzing things, but can’t think of any other way to be more honest to myself than put it in words.
I had a chat with a friend a while back and he mentioned about why it feels like time flies away. Our brains are complex storage systems, so if every day of our life is very similar then our brains starts compressing these memories together and what feels like an event that just happened is way behind in past. Well that’s exactly how I feel, I feel like I’m the guy who just started working right out of the college, and it feels weird to say i have 4 years of experience!
Well enough of all of this, I’m not giving up on life. Ironically I need to get my life in control by giving away some control. Maybe think less sometimes and just go with the first thought in the mind. Gotta trust my instinct and believe that maybe I’m not that bad.